Been listening to alot of music lately. Going back and listening to things I hadn't listened to in awhile. Seems like the older stuff is better than any new stuff kicking around now.
Also been ruminating about what to do with myself. As usual, I still really don't know. But I think it's time I try focusing on something, as opposed to running in place. Doing that hasn't done much for me these last few years.
Alot of the time I just wish someone could pull me aside and flat out tell me what to do with myself. And not in the go-fuck-yourself kind of way. I suppose I'm just the kind of person that needs some kind of validation.
I guess that makes the following song a bit more relevant than usual.
---Nickelback - Savin' Me
Prison gates won't open up for me.
On these hands and knees, I'm crawlin'.
Oh, I reach for you...
Well, I'm terrified of these four walls.
These iron bars can't hold my soul in.
All I need is you. (Come please, I'm callin').
And, oh, I scream for you. (Hurry...I'm fallin', I'm fallin')
Show me what it's like. (To be the last one standin')
And teach me wrong from right. (And I'll show you what I can be)
Say it for me, say it to me.
And I'll leave this life behind me.
Say it, if it's worth savin' me.
Heaven's gates won't open up for me.
With these broken wings, I'm fallin'.
And all I see is you...
These city walls ain't got no love for me.
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story.
And, oh, I scream for you. (Come please, I'm callin')
And all I need from you... (Hurry...I'm fallin', I'm fallin')
Show me what it's like. (To be the last one standin')
And teach me wrong from right. (And I'll show you what I can be)
Say it for me, say it to me.
And I'll leave this life behind me.
Say it, if it's worth savin' me.
(Hurry I'm fallin')
Ahhhh-yeah!
And all I need is you. (Come please, I'm callin')
And, oh, I scream for you. (Hurry...I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin')
Show me what it's like. (To be the last one standin')
And teach me wrong from right. (And I'll show you what I can be)
Say it for me, say it to me.
And I'll leave this life behind me.
Say it, if it's worth savin' me. (Hurry...I'm fallin')
And say it for me, say it to me.
And I'll leave this life behind me.
Say it, if it's worth savin' me...
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i think i've felt similarly. stagnant is how i referred to it. felt the need to metamorphasize into who i am, but i wasn't sure where to begin.
ReplyDeleteI don't feel stagnant at all. I've changed my hair and wardrobe. Change is happening. I'd be stagnant if I was staying the same.
ReplyDeleteI think the problem is that I physically zigged, while mentally (or psychologically) zagged.
I feel as if all these changes have taken me further from who I am (or should be), rather than taking me towards...my destiny.
Bleh.
i guess if you consider physical change movement, you have a point. i really need to stop leaving comments here. it's obvious i'm just "the jerk that takes everything wrong" which is my least favorite kind of blogger. i have to stop looking at your situations with empathy, as it obviously doesn't work in our conversations. hence the fact you made me feel like absolute shit on my own blog. our understandings bounce off each other like 25cent bouncey balls in a tiled room. :P
ReplyDeleteI don't mind you and your comments. Nor do I mind the content within your comments. But I'm not sure "empathy" is what you use to view my blog. Maybe "sympathy" is a better word.
ReplyDelete*shrugs*
I think it just boils down to you not being able to relate to, or understand, me. And that's not a big deal, as no one else can, either. I can also look at it the perhaps the reverse is true, and maybe the fault lies with me.
But I don't think it's from us being too different. More like that we're too similar.
I also in no way meant to make you feel bad in your own blog. So, I'm sorry that I did so.
that was kinda the point of my comment. i try to view things with empathy, but in your case i fail.
ReplyDeleteanyway, you could be right. maybe we're too similar. i've had this type of communication problem with people before, but maybe kinda the opposite, where we'd argue with each other for hours before realizing we were just saying the same thing in different ways.
communication is a strange bird.
I think we're both "strange birds".
ReplyDelete<:P