I've recently joined another dating site, OKcupid.com. Someone recommended it to me, so I thought I'd take the plunge. Plenty of Fish is just too...uneventful.
I've researched paid sites, such as eharmony, and found a number of rather disturbing things in the online dating scene. Things like "ghost profiles" (fake profiles, or defunct profiles being used to give the sense that people are viewing your profile), dubious match-making (supposedly you're a match, yet you find that there's absolutely nothing in common), or shoving a ton of "matches" at you right after you unsubscribe (to lure you back). I'm fairly certain POF is using a few of the tactics I've heard about, but that's neither here nor there.
I really like the layout of OKCupid. I also like the options, and the user-generated questions and content. Apparently alot of POFers do too. I've seen about a dozen people I've recognized from POF, there. Semi-ironically, a number of them were matched to me on POF, but according to OKCupid, weren't good matches. Then again, the matching is done moreso by an ever-changing database that cross-references itself, based on how many questions you answered, how the questions were answered, and then comparing the answers to the database population.
So far, I've had about the same success as I had on POF. I send out a buhjillion messages and get about 1-2 responses that really don't go anywhere. I chatted with 1 woman, who seemed really enthusiastic, only to have her stop speaking to me. I could actually see that she was still online, and waited for an hour to see if she'd respond. It's been days, I've seen her online, and she still hasn't bothered to respond, even though we were in mid-conversation at the time.
Bleh.
Same 'ole, same 'ole.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Sunday, April 3, 2011
And so, Sunday comes...
"And so, Sunday comes...not much better than it was..."
Yes, that's a Moist quote.
I feel kind of blah today, which is kind of like how I felt yesterday, and the days before that. It's Spring, shouldn't I feel...effervescent or something?!
Maybe it's just exhaustion talking.
Yesterday, I fell asleep at 7PM, woke up at midnight, rolled over and went back to sleep. Or at least tried. I basically tossed and turned until about 7AM, then got up for work.
I did have a peculiar dream, though. I was deep underwater, swimming down, and realized I had gone down too deep...and was running out of air. In the dream, I panicked and tried to surface but couldn't seem to get there. I remember watching my last bubbles of air floating in front of me, and realized I was about to drown. Lungs burning, I reflexively took a breath, expecting to feel water rush into them, and then horrible suffocation.
Oddly, it felt like water, but soothed my lungs like air. I remember how weird and surprising it felt to take several experimental breaths, and not be drowning. At which point I think that's when I woke up.
How's that for a wet dream?
*chuckles*
Yes, that's a Moist quote.
I feel kind of blah today, which is kind of like how I felt yesterday, and the days before that. It's Spring, shouldn't I feel...effervescent or something?!
Maybe it's just exhaustion talking.
Yesterday, I fell asleep at 7PM, woke up at midnight, rolled over and went back to sleep. Or at least tried. I basically tossed and turned until about 7AM, then got up for work.
I did have a peculiar dream, though. I was deep underwater, swimming down, and realized I had gone down too deep...and was running out of air. In the dream, I panicked and tried to surface but couldn't seem to get there. I remember watching my last bubbles of air floating in front of me, and realized I was about to drown. Lungs burning, I reflexively took a breath, expecting to feel water rush into them, and then horrible suffocation.
Oddly, it felt like water, but soothed my lungs like air. I remember how weird and surprising it felt to take several experimental breaths, and not be drowning. At which point I think that's when I woke up.
How's that for a wet dream?
*chuckles*
Monday, March 21, 2011
Bummed
Blergh...
SO, it looks like Andromeda and I are done.
Even after trying to patch things up, I still got my daily dose of passive-aggressiveness with her finally telling me 1 day "that I wasn't putting in enough effort". There was no warning whatsoever. Just BAM!
*sigh*
It's really tiring to deal with someone who keeps making you the bad guy, and themselves the victim. I admit, I haven't been all sunshine and rainbows, lately, but I was trying.
I think that after awhile, you just get numb to the games being played. I'm not even sure she knows how bad it is, or that she even does it (though I have told her), but she kept coming at it from the stance that it was all me, and that she was doing all the work.
Apply that to everything, and that's how bad it was getting.
So, after work one day, I made arrangements to collect my stuff, I stumbled to her place, gathered up said stuff, and said good-bye.
Been feeling really bummed the last few days, in the wake of this. Mainly because after all the psychological abuse she was subjecting me to, the intense passive-aggressiveness, double-standards, and needyness...I miss her.
Even though I know that I didn't deserve alot of what came my way, right now, a part of me feels like I did...
SO, it looks like Andromeda and I are done.
Even after trying to patch things up, I still got my daily dose of passive-aggressiveness with her finally telling me 1 day "that I wasn't putting in enough effort". There was no warning whatsoever. Just BAM!
*sigh*
It's really tiring to deal with someone who keeps making you the bad guy, and themselves the victim. I admit, I haven't been all sunshine and rainbows, lately, but I was trying.
I think that after awhile, you just get numb to the games being played. I'm not even sure she knows how bad it is, or that she even does it (though I have told her), but she kept coming at it from the stance that it was all me, and that she was doing all the work.
Apply that to everything, and that's how bad it was getting.
So, after work one day, I made arrangements to collect my stuff, I stumbled to her place, gathered up said stuff, and said good-bye.
Been feeling really bummed the last few days, in the wake of this. Mainly because after all the psychological abuse she was subjecting me to, the intense passive-aggressiveness, double-standards, and needyness...I miss her.
Even though I know that I didn't deserve alot of what came my way, right now, a part of me feels like I did...
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Smellobrate!
I have a new word for today.
"Smellobrate"
It's for use when something smells so good, you want to celebrate!
And now...on with some recent events.
My hours at work have been cut...again. I'd joke about it, but when it coincides with a troublesome roomie causing more trouble, it's not really funny-time.
Basically, said roomie has decided to move out at the end of next month. I'd jump for joy (because I hate him with the burning passion of a 1000 suns) if it weren't for the fact that it hoses me, and my remaining roomies, out of around $225 a month. Money I don't really have at the moment, given the work hours being cut.
So in-short, Hulk mad. Hulk really mad. But it's better than what we thought was going to happen, where the rest of us could've been stuck in a lease, and forced to waste $2000 over the course of the next 9 months. OR suffer a breach of contract, and potentially be sued for even more.
Been taking a break from Andromeda. About this time last week, she pulled a relationship no-no, and judged me. She called me "petty". I was venting about the workplace issues, and roommate issues (as seen above)...to which she judged.
Personally, I don't think it's petty to be mad at someone who screws me over to make their situation better. I think it's justified. Apparently, Andromeda thinks otherwise. And after some intermittent fighting, I've decided to simply not deal with her for the time being.
In her absence, I've been ruminating over alot of the problems I've been having with her. Namely, the fact that she's an emotional hostage-taker. One of her texts to me during our arguing phase is textbook emotional hostage-taking.
And I quote:
"If you loved me like you say you do, you'd..."
Funny thing is, It wasn't until then that I realized that she does it often. In fact, she did it right from the get-go, dropping the L-bomb ("I love you"), very early in our relationship, which made me uncomfortable. Over time, I eventually caved and reciprocated it back to her, mainly because she got pissy when I didn't. Still, that part is partially my fault, as I did acquiesce. And now, I suspect that there's going to be some fun conversation time come Sunday, when I tell her that our relationship isn't working out for me.
Now that'll be a chucklefest...
"Smellobrate"
It's for use when something smells so good, you want to celebrate!
And now...on with some recent events.
My hours at work have been cut...again. I'd joke about it, but when it coincides with a troublesome roomie causing more trouble, it's not really funny-time.
Basically, said roomie has decided to move out at the end of next month. I'd jump for joy (because I hate him with the burning passion of a 1000 suns) if it weren't for the fact that it hoses me, and my remaining roomies, out of around $225 a month. Money I don't really have at the moment, given the work hours being cut.
So in-short, Hulk mad. Hulk really mad. But it's better than what we thought was going to happen, where the rest of us could've been stuck in a lease, and forced to waste $2000 over the course of the next 9 months. OR suffer a breach of contract, and potentially be sued for even more.
Been taking a break from Andromeda. About this time last week, she pulled a relationship no-no, and judged me. She called me "petty". I was venting about the workplace issues, and roommate issues (as seen above)...to which she judged.
Personally, I don't think it's petty to be mad at someone who screws me over to make their situation better. I think it's justified. Apparently, Andromeda thinks otherwise. And after some intermittent fighting, I've decided to simply not deal with her for the time being.
In her absence, I've been ruminating over alot of the problems I've been having with her. Namely, the fact that she's an emotional hostage-taker. One of her texts to me during our arguing phase is textbook emotional hostage-taking.
And I quote:
"If you loved me like you say you do, you'd..."
Funny thing is, It wasn't until then that I realized that she does it often. In fact, she did it right from the get-go, dropping the L-bomb ("I love you"), very early in our relationship, which made me uncomfortable. Over time, I eventually caved and reciprocated it back to her, mainly because she got pissy when I didn't. Still, that part is partially my fault, as I did acquiesce. And now, I suspect that there's going to be some fun conversation time come Sunday, when I tell her that our relationship isn't working out for me.
Now that'll be a chucklefest...
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Ass-backwards...
Funny story. At work today, I found myself with a constant wedgie. One that I had to pick roughly every few minutes.
After a few hours, I quickly groped around and discovered that somehow, I had put on my underpants on backwards.
Seriously.
To put this into perspective...I don't dress in the dark, so I can't even use that as an excuse. I've been pretty out of it the last few days, though. Haven't been sleeping well, and I think I might be coming down with something too.
Also, it was my birthday on the 17th, so I'm now basking in my own decreptitude at the ripe old age of 34.
I did manage to grab Star Wars: The Clone Wars, season 2, and watched all of it over the course of this last week. Still a pretty good show.
I've also started collecting a board(-ish) game called Heroscape. It's basically a dumbed-down, tabletop RPG game with pre-painted miniatures. I've probably spent $400 buying figures and expansions for it. Bad news is, apparently the owners of it, Wizards of the Coast (current owners of the Dungeons & Dragons RPG) dropped it back in November, leaving the game without a distributor. So now everything is essentially out-of-print. What that means is...without any continuing production, prices for existing/remaining content in shops will go through the roof and the rarer stuff that I don't have will become even more expensive.
Case-in-point...A small jungle expansion with 4 spider miniatures, a smattering of tiles, and a copse of trees was going for $200+ on E-bay. That's about 5X what the set was originally worth.
But not to worry. I think I'm going to break out some arty skills and custom-make my own tiles, trees, and whatever-the-Hell else I want.
SHAZAM!
After a few hours, I quickly groped around and discovered that somehow, I had put on my underpants on backwards.
Seriously.
To put this into perspective...I don't dress in the dark, so I can't even use that as an excuse. I've been pretty out of it the last few days, though. Haven't been sleeping well, and I think I might be coming down with something too.
Also, it was my birthday on the 17th, so I'm now basking in my own decreptitude at the ripe old age of 34.
I did manage to grab Star Wars: The Clone Wars, season 2, and watched all of it over the course of this last week. Still a pretty good show.
I've also started collecting a board(-ish) game called Heroscape. It's basically a dumbed-down, tabletop RPG game with pre-painted miniatures. I've probably spent $400 buying figures and expansions for it. Bad news is, apparently the owners of it, Wizards of the Coast (current owners of the Dungeons & Dragons RPG) dropped it back in November, leaving the game without a distributor. So now everything is essentially out-of-print. What that means is...without any continuing production, prices for existing/remaining content in shops will go through the roof and the rarer stuff that I don't have will become even more expensive.
Case-in-point...A small jungle expansion with 4 spider miniatures, a smattering of tiles, and a copse of trees was going for $200+ on E-bay. That's about 5X what the set was originally worth.
But not to worry. I think I'm going to break out some arty skills and custom-make my own tiles, trees, and whatever-the-Hell else I want.
SHAZAM!
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Busy, busy bee...
Blergh, been so busy lately. Double-blergh because I have a migraine. Thankfuly the pain, dizzyness, hurling, and lack of coordination have all but worn off. I'm even braving food for the first time in a couple days. Yay me!
It's funny how I ignore my poor blog, rob it of alot of the stuff going on in my days, yet when something comes along and kicks my ass...that's when I finally set aside some time for it. I've got to stop doing that. Maybe that'll be my belated New Years resolution.
Recent events:
I've been spending alot of time with Andromeda, and finally got my lightsaber (it's pretty sweet). If I can figure out how to post a picture of it, I'll try. Damned new-fangled interwebs!
Also gotten a few new addictions.
Being a Star Wars fan I tend to keep tabs on various Star Warsy things. I've been on the fence regarding the recent Clone Wars CGI animated series. I won't get too far into it, I'm fairly sure I've ranted in a previous entry why my fandom of Star Wars isn't synonymous with fandom of George Lucas.
Anyhoo, I finally caved and picked up the 1st season. And I have to say that I'm impressed. The first few episodes are kind of "meh", but after the first 4-5 episodes the show really starts to find its legs. We get to see some pretty mature concepts get explored. In an odd way, I think the show reminds me of the old Batman: the Animated Series, which found an amazing capacity for being able to entertain children, and adults, AND fans of the source material in 1 fell swoop. Now I'm chomping at the bit to grab season 2.
*slaps veins in arm*
JUST PUT IT IN MY VEIN!!
Erm. Yeah...
My other recent addiction is the new DC Universe Online MMO. While not perfect by any means (alot needs revisioning, if not a total overhaul), but the game itself is ridiculously fun, and feels more like a console button-masher (which it is, ported from PS3 to PC). Overall it's a very dumbed-down MMO, with pretty great voice acting, bringing back alot of established actors who have provided voices from various cartoon series.
Blergh, Up for an hour, now I'm exhausted. Back to bed for me...
It's funny how I ignore my poor blog, rob it of alot of the stuff going on in my days, yet when something comes along and kicks my ass...that's when I finally set aside some time for it. I've got to stop doing that. Maybe that'll be my belated New Years resolution.
Recent events:
I've been spending alot of time with Andromeda, and finally got my lightsaber (it's pretty sweet). If I can figure out how to post a picture of it, I'll try. Damned new-fangled interwebs!
Also gotten a few new addictions.
Being a Star Wars fan I tend to keep tabs on various Star Warsy things. I've been on the fence regarding the recent Clone Wars CGI animated series. I won't get too far into it, I'm fairly sure I've ranted in a previous entry why my fandom of Star Wars isn't synonymous with fandom of George Lucas.
Anyhoo, I finally caved and picked up the 1st season. And I have to say that I'm impressed. The first few episodes are kind of "meh", but after the first 4-5 episodes the show really starts to find its legs. We get to see some pretty mature concepts get explored. In an odd way, I think the show reminds me of the old Batman: the Animated Series, which found an amazing capacity for being able to entertain children, and adults, AND fans of the source material in 1 fell swoop. Now I'm chomping at the bit to grab season 2.
*slaps veins in arm*
JUST PUT IT IN MY VEIN!!
Erm. Yeah...
My other recent addiction is the new DC Universe Online MMO. While not perfect by any means (alot needs revisioning, if not a total overhaul), but the game itself is ridiculously fun, and feels more like a console button-masher (which it is, ported from PS3 to PC). Overall it's a very dumbed-down MMO, with pretty great voice acting, bringing back alot of established actors who have provided voices from various cartoon series.
Blergh, Up for an hour, now I'm exhausted. Back to bed for me...
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Second verse, same as the first...
I've been contemplating what I should post for a few days now.
I was going to do the typical thing and do a New Years post, as many bloggers often do. And as New Year's approached, I felt little urge to post anything at all. I had an idea, and it sort of slipped away on me.
It made me think what's there to post?
What's the saying? "If you've got nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all"?
And I found myself with nothing good to say. Major buzzkill, I know.
Maybe it's the absence of Andromeda. Maybe it's the overall lack of direction I constantly feel. Maybe even the Winter blahs. I just don't understand what there is to celebrate. Yippee, it's another new year.
Another year has come and gone. Much like the previous year, and the year before that. It all just feels...interminable. And I'm not really sure what I can possibly do about it.
There just seems no satisfaction in anything. No challenge. Nothing really worth fighting for. In fact, that's exactly how I feel...I feel like a knight without a cause. A soldier without a proper war. Completely lost in a world I can't relate to.
And with all likelyhood, this new year will probably pan out exactly like the last.
I'll blink and miss it. And wonder what the Hell just happened.
I really need to change this pattern. I can't keep distracting myself from all the problems I have. Can't keep playing the shell game against my own psyche.
Now....go!
I was going to do the typical thing and do a New Years post, as many bloggers often do. And as New Year's approached, I felt little urge to post anything at all. I had an idea, and it sort of slipped away on me.
It made me think what's there to post?
What's the saying? "If you've got nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all"?
And I found myself with nothing good to say. Major buzzkill, I know.
Maybe it's the absence of Andromeda. Maybe it's the overall lack of direction I constantly feel. Maybe even the Winter blahs. I just don't understand what there is to celebrate. Yippee, it's another new year.
Another year has come and gone. Much like the previous year, and the year before that. It all just feels...interminable. And I'm not really sure what I can possibly do about it.
There just seems no satisfaction in anything. No challenge. Nothing really worth fighting for. In fact, that's exactly how I feel...I feel like a knight without a cause. A soldier without a proper war. Completely lost in a world I can't relate to.
And with all likelyhood, this new year will probably pan out exactly like the last.
I'll blink and miss it. And wonder what the Hell just happened.
I really need to change this pattern. I can't keep distracting myself from all the problems I have. Can't keep playing the shell game against my own psyche.
Now....go!
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