At the Movies...

In the last little while I've watched a bunch of movies.

Dark Shadows
the Amazing Spider-man
The Dark Knight Rises
Prometheus

I've watched some more than once. And yet, not a single one of them really wowed me.

Dark Shadows was too campy. And had a great cast wasted with very small roles. Then again, I'm also not a fan of Mr. Burton, though I did enjoy Sleepy Hollow.

Spider-man was very hit-and-miss with its take on characters. Spider-man seemed more like an asshole, than a person of playful glib wit. Parker seemed a borderline emotional wreck, because of his "parental issues" - despite the fact that he had 2 very supportive, loving, blood-relatives looking after him for most of his life.

I got the impression that either the writer(s), or the director, were trying waaaay too hard to infuse realism into a character that is fundamentally supposed to exist in a genre that exploits wish-fulfillment (comic books). The juxtaposition of trying to empathize with Parker really diminished the buzz of him being Spider-man.

Dark Knight Rises had some peculiar casting with Tom Hardy (whom I usually like), Anne Hathaway (whom I despise), and continued use of Christian Bale. I've liked Mr. Bale in other films, but he in no way embodies the traits of Batman OR Bruce Wayne to me.

Prometheus was ambitious and full of great performers (Noomi Rapace, and Michael Fassbender especially), but overall, it seemed like it didn't know if it wanted to be a prequel to the Aliens franchise, or be its own stand-alone film. That wishy-washyness continually pulled me in, and then cut me loose, as I watched it.

Maybe I just have the "movie meh's".

The straw, the camel, and something about a back.

Got home from work about 45 minutes ago.

Rough day. Not so much from work, just from....stuff. I won't bore you with details. They don't matter.

For the record, when you've been quietly contemplating suicide continuously for an entire day - there's nothing worse than having a roomie hear your key in the door, rushing to it, taking a look at you and going "oh, it's you".

I nearly burst into tears on the spot.

Above

Finger Eleven - Above

Inside, I'm gone.
You knew that all-all along.
Without the distance, you never get away-yay-hey yay-hey.

Plastic bag image.
It's over now, it's over now.
The color fading, is all the way to grey-yay-hey yay-hey.

We-ee-ee are strong, but we're dumb.
We look above, we look above.

We-ee-ee are strong, but we're dumb.
We look above, we look abo-ove.

Trusting the instinct.
It's not about what you think.
The one reaction is only to obey-yay-hey yay-hey.

And I'm-I'm staring,
All around, not far down.
Judge the distance from the ground and pray-yay-hey yay-hey.

We-ee-ee are strong, but we're dumb.
We look above, we look above.

We-hee-ee-ee are strong, but we're dumb.
We look above, we look abo-ha-ya-ove.

We-ee-ee are strong, but we're dumb.
We look above, we look above.

WE-EE-EE ARE STRONG, BUT WE'RE DUMB.
WE LOOK ABOVE, WE LOOK ABOVE.

WE-EE-EE ARE STRONG, BUT WE'RE DUMB.
WE LOOK ABOVE, WE LOOK ABOVE.

WE-HEE-EE-EE ARE STROOONG, BUT WE'RE DUMB.
WE LOOK ABOVE, WE LOOK ABO-OVE.

WE LOOK ABOVE.

Hey-yay-hey yay-hey.

WE LOOK ABOVE, WE LOOK ABOVE.
Yay-hey yay-hey-yay.


I've been away. Don't think anyone's noticed. I didn't really notice, either. I've been kind of killing myself in increments over the last several months, with no end in sight. School fell through, various attempts at dating fell through, interpersonal responsibilities fell through. It sort of seems life (at least for me) is designed to continually fall through. I've got no energy to see anything through anymore. They don't have outlets for me to plug into so I can recharge. Can't decide if I should continue to get up, and keep on, or not. This might sound self-pitying, but it's not. I don't feel sorrowful, just disappointed. Nothing has any lasting substance. It's all intangible. All I can do is work, come home, work, come home, etc. When I'm home, I just sit at my computer and stare at the monitor, waiting for something.

Anyway, the above song has basically been rattling around my head for the last little while.

Link on YouTube.