Blergh...
SO, it looks like Andromeda and I are done.
Even after trying to patch things up, I still got my daily dose of passive-aggressiveness with her finally telling me 1 day "that I wasn't putting in enough effort". There was no warning whatsoever. Just BAM!
*sigh*
It's really tiring to deal with someone who keeps making you the bad guy, and themselves the victim. I admit, I haven't been all sunshine and rainbows, lately, but I was trying.
I think that after awhile, you just get numb to the games being played. I'm not even sure she knows how bad it is, or that she even does it (though I have told her), but she kept coming at it from the stance that it was all me, and that she was doing all the work.
Apply that to everything, and that's how bad it was getting.
So, after work one day, I made arrangements to collect my stuff, I stumbled to her place, gathered up said stuff, and said good-bye.
Been feeling really bummed the last few days, in the wake of this. Mainly because after all the psychological abuse she was subjecting me to, the intense passive-aggressiveness, double-standards, and needyness...I miss her.
Even though I know that I didn't deserve alot of what came my way, right now, a part of me feels like I did...
Monday, March 21, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Smellobrate!
I have a new word for today.
"Smellobrate"
It's for use when something smells so good, you want to celebrate!
And now...on with some recent events.
My hours at work have been cut...again. I'd joke about it, but when it coincides with a troublesome roomie causing more trouble, it's not really funny-time.
Basically, said roomie has decided to move out at the end of next month. I'd jump for joy (because I hate him with the burning passion of a 1000 suns) if it weren't for the fact that it hoses me, and my remaining roomies, out of around $225 a month. Money I don't really have at the moment, given the work hours being cut.
So in-short, Hulk mad. Hulk really mad. But it's better than what we thought was going to happen, where the rest of us could've been stuck in a lease, and forced to waste $2000 over the course of the next 9 months. OR suffer a breach of contract, and potentially be sued for even more.
Been taking a break from Andromeda. About this time last week, she pulled a relationship no-no, and judged me. She called me "petty". I was venting about the workplace issues, and roommate issues (as seen above)...to which she judged.
Personally, I don't think it's petty to be mad at someone who screws me over to make their situation better. I think it's justified. Apparently, Andromeda thinks otherwise. And after some intermittent fighting, I've decided to simply not deal with her for the time being.
In her absence, I've been ruminating over alot of the problems I've been having with her. Namely, the fact that she's an emotional hostage-taker. One of her texts to me during our arguing phase is textbook emotional hostage-taking.
And I quote:
"If you loved me like you say you do, you'd..."
Funny thing is, It wasn't until then that I realized that she does it often. In fact, she did it right from the get-go, dropping the L-bomb ("I love you"), very early in our relationship, which made me uncomfortable. Over time, I eventually caved and reciprocated it back to her, mainly because she got pissy when I didn't. Still, that part is partially my fault, as I did acquiesce. And now, I suspect that there's going to be some fun conversation time come Sunday, when I tell her that our relationship isn't working out for me.
Now that'll be a chucklefest...
"Smellobrate"
It's for use when something smells so good, you want to celebrate!
And now...on with some recent events.
My hours at work have been cut...again. I'd joke about it, but when it coincides with a troublesome roomie causing more trouble, it's not really funny-time.
Basically, said roomie has decided to move out at the end of next month. I'd jump for joy (because I hate him with the burning passion of a 1000 suns) if it weren't for the fact that it hoses me, and my remaining roomies, out of around $225 a month. Money I don't really have at the moment, given the work hours being cut.
So in-short, Hulk mad. Hulk really mad. But it's better than what we thought was going to happen, where the rest of us could've been stuck in a lease, and forced to waste $2000 over the course of the next 9 months. OR suffer a breach of contract, and potentially be sued for even more.
Been taking a break from Andromeda. About this time last week, she pulled a relationship no-no, and judged me. She called me "petty". I was venting about the workplace issues, and roommate issues (as seen above)...to which she judged.
Personally, I don't think it's petty to be mad at someone who screws me over to make their situation better. I think it's justified. Apparently, Andromeda thinks otherwise. And after some intermittent fighting, I've decided to simply not deal with her for the time being.
In her absence, I've been ruminating over alot of the problems I've been having with her. Namely, the fact that she's an emotional hostage-taker. One of her texts to me during our arguing phase is textbook emotional hostage-taking.
And I quote:
"If you loved me like you say you do, you'd..."
Funny thing is, It wasn't until then that I realized that she does it often. In fact, she did it right from the get-go, dropping the L-bomb ("I love you"), very early in our relationship, which made me uncomfortable. Over time, I eventually caved and reciprocated it back to her, mainly because she got pissy when I didn't. Still, that part is partially my fault, as I did acquiesce. And now, I suspect that there's going to be some fun conversation time come Sunday, when I tell her that our relationship isn't working out for me.
Now that'll be a chucklefest...
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